Nicole Kidman Makes Candid Admission After Keith Urban Divorce

Christopher Polk / Christopher Polk, Getty Images Nicole Kidman says she is facing the future with an “open heart” as she continues to process her split from Keith Urban after 19 years of marriage.

The Australian actress opened up to British Vogue about the end of her marriage to the New Zealand-born country singer, whom she filed to divorce last September.

The 59-year-old spoke candidly about how her plans have changed.

“I had a different view of what my life was going to be, but this is what it is now,” Kidman said.

“You make all these plans and you have all these ideas of what it’s all going to be like and then it’s… not.

You have to adjust.

You adapt.

The future, it’s completely unknown to me right now.” As far as divorces go, Kidman and Urban’s seemed drama-free.

They parted ways citing irreconcilable differences but agreed to shared custody of their two children, Sunday Rose, 18, and Faith Margaret, 15.

They didn’t go to court and neither of them would be required to pay spousal support.

Kidman said she is still processing the split, which she says sometimes surprises people.

“I don’t overthink things and I’m probably not that analytical.

I’m far more feeling-centred and I lead with my heart.

I just go, ‘OK, what do I feel here? I’ll give it a go.’ It throws people, because I think they think I’ll be far more measured and I’m not.” When asked if the change is scary, Kidman said there was a point when she was “very fearful” but decided to “just go forward with an enormous amount of hope.” She credits her resilience to older women in her life who serve as mentors.